The fork in the road

I've come to that fork in the road....the one that you try to guess which direction you take that will give you the most satisfaction in life. You can't tell from looking which is best, you just trust your instincts and hope for the best. The direction I'm taking evidently is the one meant for me to take.

Quick question; do you believe in love at first sight?? Seriously....do you?? I never did. It never happened to me, and I thought those who believed were seriously deluded. After all, you can't honestly expect to know someone just from a glance, or a short time (we're talking a couple of days) of knowing. Well, here is what has changed my mind.

I recently went through a 6 month long relationship that I THOUGHT was it. Despite my inner misgivings, I really wanted it to work out. It didn't. I'm getting pretty good at this rejection thing...sigh Anyway, I decided that's it, no more, I"ll just spend my life alone, thank you very much. I had a wonderful marriage until he died and I decided after this one that I am sick of looking for Mr Right Now...I won't settle for anything less than "Mr Right".

However, last week I decided to (and don't ask me why, just felt compelled to) rejoin a singles site and see what's out there. I hadn't been on it for more than a day or two when I came across a guy's page who was quite outspoken what he DIDN"T want. Well, apparently this site tells the members who has been checking them out, because the next day I get a message "I'm interested in you too". We sent innersite emails back and forth when he said "Jeri, we need to talk in real time!!" So we exchanged IM names and started talking. And talking....and talking....we had so much in common, it was scary. And we had enough differences to make things interesting. The more we talked, the more I wanted to meet this guy. Last weekend alone we talked 8 hours on Saturday!! So on Tuesday, he took me to lunch. Just the first glance of him walking up to my door was it....I knew it! He's the one!

You'd think I'd be more cautious, after so many failed relationships in the past 8 years, and God knows I've tried to continue that with him, but I just got the feeling being cautious this time wasn't the answer...its time to throw caution to the wind and allow whatever happens to happen. Will I get hurt later??? I don't believe I will, and if for some awful chance I DO, well, at least I can say I took a chance, embraced what was in front of me, and took it as far as I can go. I think just that alone is well worth the risk. HE'S worth the risk.

Oh and in case you wonder, he says he feels the same way. I know I can look into his eyes and see my future...and the future looks wonderful!!